I’m going to tell you all about this photo… just as soon as I have the tools to do so. But stupid deadline and all that. So, to be continued…
I started a blog back in 2006 called “Must Stop Eating” (before Chocolate & Whine and before Stephanie Harsh and before The Vamp Tramp and holy shit can’t I ever just stick?!) and I chronicled really mundane things like what I ate and whether I pooped or not (serious) and I often ended sentences with “yay!” The truth is, back then I had legit reasons or ending my sentences with “yay!” because I was in the process of losing upwards of 50 freaking pounds. “Yay!” indeed.
I kept the weight off for a while and then I got divorced and my entire life changed. Including my eating habits. And I started to gain weight. But I kept telling myself I could lose it again any time I wanted. I knew how. I was a pro. An expert. A little weight didn’t scare me! And I continued to tell myself that until I had gained ALL THE WEIGHT BACK AND THEN SOME.
That was five years ago and I’ve been struggling ever since.
Several months ago, I started reading those old blog entries. I was so young back then, so naive and so optimistic. And while I can’t help but cringe a little and roll my eyes at some (most) of those old, silly posts, there’s something so inspiring about them, something that makes me feel like I really could do it again.
Even now, right now, just talking about them… I feel motivated.
They’re the reason I came back to “Must Stop Eating” and the reason I started blogging again. Because, let’s face facts, I really MUST STOP EATING. Getting back into a routine that once proved successful can’t hurt, right? That was my intention 6 months ago, but supposedly better late than never. (I’m not sure I agree with that statement; no one likes people who are late.)
I promise not to talk about poop this time. No, I take that back. I might talk about poop.
It makes me nervous spending large amounts of money. And by “large,” I mean anything over fifty bucks. (I’m totally serious.) So, shopping for a new laptop the last few months has been a little stressful. (It was much easier to spend the money when I was married and their were two incomes and a husband who took care of the finances and I could just pretend the money was limitless. That was fun.)
Anyway, I came home with the new Surface about a week ago. And let me just say this: the Surface Pen? On Photoshop? GAME. CHANGER. It has totally (at least for now) restored my interest in photography and Photoshop and I feel like a brand new girl! (A brand new almost-33-year-old girl who still has no idea what she’s doing and now regrets eating all those M&Ms.)
This pretty gold ribbon has been sitting on my desk for months. It’s too pretty to throw away but, if I were the type of girl who was honest with herself, I’d be able to admit I’m never going to use it. Except for a photo opp. In other news, I bought a laptop today. Have you seen what they’re doing with computers these days? The sheer number of options is staggering. There’re just too many! Too many took-me-eight-months-to-make-a-decision options. And now? The resolution on this thing is so high that I need a magnifying glass to see the buttons in Photoshop. I wish I was exaggerating.